Mother's Bestest Gift

Last night....well, actually, early this morning, I woke up with Fiona to do her usual 3 am feeding. I laid back down in bed and then my mind began to wonder. To make the story short, I ended up going to the couch so that all of my tossing and turning did not wake up my dear sleeping husband. I was not on the couch for more than 15 mintues when I heard Macy. She was uncovered and cold, and wanted me to cover her back up. I did, and she asked me where I was at, and I explained how I couldn't sleep and I was trying to fall back asleep out on the couch. She told me that she would protect me if I laid with her, but didn't want me to lay with her, so, I didn't, but after several more trips to her bed, I made he scoot over to make room for me. We were just laying there talking, and she was rubbing my back, when the subject became about me being small and tiny like her, way back when. Then Miss Macy said,
"When I get big, I want to be just like you, Mom."
That was my moment! It made all of my daily struggles, sleepless nights, dirty dishes and laundry, shower sharing, dessert sharing, hurt feet from stepping on toys, vacuuming three times a day, giving up adult television and music for nick jr, and primary songs, sitting through primary and sunbeams when I really want to be in Relief Society, taking time to buckle in three extra wiggly bodies before driving away, dragging three bodies to the post office on the busiest day, and to the UPS store on the second busiest day, waiting in traffic with starving kids, and even, yes, even, going to Walmart alone with them all worth while. When it became so clear that my purpose was to be a stay-at-home mom. I am appreciated! It was then and there that I realized we need to take time out for each of them, even if it is when everyone is supposed to be sleeping, and we are the only two awake and conversing. I forgot about being so tired that my eyes stung, I forgot that it was only a few more hours before the rest of the day would begin, and I would be busy with laundry, dishes, lunch, and all of the last minute things before Christmas. I forgot that anyone else existed except for us two. The moment I never wanted to end and I never want to forget. Just me and Macy....it hasn't been that way since January 16, 2004, but it was for a moment, and it is a memory for a lifetime. I just had to share it with everyone, it made my night!